Today is my first ultrasound.... I'm nervous.
Part of me is obviously excited, but another part of me is just nervous to think that this is all actually happening... and it's going to be confirmed today with a heart beat! (At least I'm praying that all is well and we hear a heart beat!)
I am definitely not looking forward to drinking so much water and HOLDING IT... but I guess it's just what ya have to do (unfortunately). Do they make you do that EVERY time? Even when your stomach gets really big?? I can't imagine that it matters much once your uterus overshadows your bladder.... but I really have no idea!
On another note...
I'm dealing with a little guilt... #1 because I haven't been eating very well. I just can't bring myself to eat "healthy" foods. I can get some fruits and veggies down.... but mostly I can only stomach pizza and cereal. Every once and awhile I can eat something else... but I just feel guilty because I know I'm not doing baby any favors (and I think I'm gaining more weight than I should be right now which irritates me). And #2, I feel guilty because I have friends who would like to have children and who haven't been able to.... and it's hard to share in my experience when I want to be sensitive to them and their issues. Just kind of makes me feel alienated... but perhaps I'm just doing that to myself!
Hopefully I'll have a good report and possibly a picture to share later on!!