Sunday, May 8, 2011
My First Mother's Day...
I have been waiting for this day for years. Mother's Day. A day that I can look at my beautiful baby... and say... "I am going to be the best mama I can for you!".
For years I silently grieved on this day. Even before I was married, I longed for a child. I felt like my day would never come... and though I would celebrate my own mother... I still always felt like something was missing. I would sit in the pew at church, swallowing the lump in my throat, as I listened to the messages about the blessings of our Mothers and looking around at the young people with babies and toddlers. I even grieved in my heart for those women I knew that had not been able to conceive for years, knowing that I was there and still had a chance, while they had tried and tried unsuccessfully.
Today is a day not only for the mothers who have snuggled and cared for their children over the years... but it's also a day for those mommies who have known a child in the womb, but did not have the opportunity to hold those sweet babies in their arms. (Luckily, those babes are in the arms of Jesus!)
I have been so blessed!
Happy Mother's Day!