Yesterday I turned 20 Weeks. Hard to believe I'm already half way through this pregnancy, but it's kind of a relief too. I want to be one of those people who just glows and enjoys pregnancy... but I'm not. I feel frumpy and definitely not "glowing". But in spite of that... it is truly a blessing to have a little one growing inside of me and I am certainly grateful!
It has only been 4 days since Weezer has been gone... and I am missing her terribly. Perhaps it sounds crazy... but I got a picture of her blown up to 8x10 so that I could frame it and hang it on the wall beside a picture of Boo. I admit, I look at it and tear up a lot... but I don't want her to just be a fuzzy memory in the back of my mind. She was truly special to me and I want to keep her memory clear as time goes by. I think a picture in constant view will help.
Eloise often finds the phone or grabs one of her play phones and says, "Hi Weezy"... then jibber jabbers, occasionally referring to "Weez Puke". It makes me happy that she still thinks of her as her kitty. She also said to me this morning, "Weezy Bye Bye." That made me sad - but most things do at the moment!
Yesterday I had the framed pic of Weez leaning up against the wall so I could show Cory when he came home from work. I was preparing dinner when all of a sudden, Eloise shouts, "Weezy! Weezy!" and goes running into the living room. I went over and peeked around the corner and saw her "petting" the picture and giving it kisses. Again, I started to tear up. And maybe some people think that it's weird. But hey, she is only 18 months old... she's known Weez her whole life... and to see a big picture of her gave her great joy. It meant a lot to me.
Here are a couple of pics from this morning.
Eloise in her PJ's with a bucket on her head (crazy kid).
A number of people recommend getting another cat soon, before the baby comes... to give us time to get used to it, and it to us. We are still weighing our options. Part of me wants to... but part of me feels like I'd be betraying Weez... so we shall see.