Do you ever feel disappointed when you go to the mailbox to find it... *gasp!*... empty?
Maybe it's just me, but I have a feeling I'm not alone! ;)
Anyway, imagine my excitement today when I got a package in the mail!
Of course, it wasn't random. It was something I had ordered.
But the excitement was still there!
Cory and I have decided that the best route for Eloise, amid her food allergies (and lets face it, the way this country is going... dare I say... downhill), is to homeschool! I admit that the thought is a little overwhelming. I grew up dreaming of being a stay-at-home mom, taking care of my babies until they were school age, only to send them off to school and have the whole day to myself. I could throw pottery. Weave at the loom. Sew. Cook, clean and all that stuff as well, of course. But fast forward to REALITY. Having a kid (or two.. or three) really changes your perspective on life. At least for me. You go from being a selfish kid... to a selfish adult... to a parent who needs a major attitude adjustment. Trust me, I struggle with that daily. It's hard to let go of years of doing for myself. Not that I didn't do for others or volunteer, etc. But you know what I mean. You get to eat when you want, wake up when you want (well, depending on jobs and responsibilities), go to bed when you want, wear what you want, etc etc... you get the point. When you become a mama, you are subject to a demanding infant who wants to eat when they want, poop, sleep, play and all other manners of infant to toddler things that make you realize that you probably should go to bed AS SOON AS the baby falls asleep at night because you know you'll only get to catch a couple hours of sleep, if you're lucky. Or you might as well wear your old Tshirts from high school because you don't want to get your "good clothes" spit up on or projectile pooped on (yes, that's happened to me!). You eat when you can fit it in... and same with chores. You feel like you're going CRAZY for awhile. (Maybe it's just me?).
Anyway, it's taken me awhile to TRULY realize that the most important thing in my life at this moment is to take care of my family, with God as the center. I used to get restless because I never felt I had time for ME. But I am finally finding the balance. It's a good place to be. Not perfect. But good. I still make a little time for myself sometimes. Mostly when the younger two nap and Eloise has a little quiet time. I will sew or try to crochet (yikes!). I am happy to be blessed to stay at home with my children. And I'm even happier to be able to homeschool and use every day experiences as learning situations. AND I AM SO EXCITED that our Bible Curriculum came in the mail today!! My sister, who homeschools her three, gifted me many resources to get Eloise started. I have been sorting through and figuring out what we want to use this year. I absolutely love the idea of doing Bible lessons. Of course my children read bible stories and sing scripture-based songs, etc.... but we don't take them to Sunday School (food allergies make us very wary... especially when even family sometimes has a hard time remembering to be careful with what they bring around El). We want our girls to be grounded in the faith and what is the best place to learn than at home, by the people who love you most?
Eloise is 4.5 now and won't be 5 until January, however, she is reading very well and we feel that if we wait another year she will just be spinning her wheels. She loves to learn, so why not fuel that hunger for knowledge? And the bonus is that Dinah will get to learn along side her in little spurts! And they'll still have time in their day to play! Playing is learning, after all! :)
Now... to get myself organized...