Happy New Year... I think....

So, it's 2008. I am not one to take change very well... and usually I have a breakdown at some point over events like the starting of a new year. I think maybe my breakdown was yesterday... especially because I found out that an old crush from years ago is getting married in February. Lame, I know... I shouldn't dwell on such things because I have so many good things in my life. But, I guess its more about the fact that I have to let go of my youth. It just seems odd to me. I don't feel like an adult... but I don't feel like a kid either. I guess I feel like, when everyone around me is living... my life is standing still. (Which distresses me). But then, I look at my family, my house, my dog and cat, my car, my job, my best friend (Cory), and I see how blessed I am! I have so much to be thankful for. I need to work on "dwelling on the past". Actually, I just need to NOT worry about it... and look forward to the future. I so much want to get married and have a family and LIVE and LOVE... I can't really do that when I am worried about what used to be and what isn't happening. Worrying stinks! So anyway... I am just rambling. I want 2008 to be an amazing year... I pray that it is... and I know God doesn't give me anything I can't handle!!